[RANT] I’m heartbroken and helpless and concerned and need to share

IN C19 Victims

I can’t make you look at research, I can’t ask you to join groups, I can’t ask you to read these stories, and I can’t sit back and do nothing. I don’t know what to do. My heart breaks for these people.

Ignore my rant if you can’t handle rants, but I’m going to burst if I don’t get these thoughts out of me.

The whole world went into lockdown to protect the most vulnerable, and now we’re volunteering our most vulnerable to be our poor guinea pigs. And it’s accepted? People accept this? People don’t question this? People believe that the ‘potential’ benefit outweighs the risks? Nothing makes sense and yet everyone is reading headlines from their tv as their justification without even looking into anything more deeply. I hear it VERBATIM coming out of people’s mouths. They’ve never looked up anything, but an echo coming out of their mouths of “what they were told, what they heard, what their fave celebrity says, what the voice on the tv told them, what they “think” society will find acceptible as a ‘good citizen’.

Everyone seems so surface-level and it’s making me feel so completely helpless. How do we share what is going on if it’s censored everywhere? How does the latest research get in front of people if Social Media giants ‘switch them off’ and the media dare not go there? When did Facebook and YouTube and Google become the “Gods of information” – why do they get to decide what people see?

Most of the people in these screenshots I’m sharing are pro-vaxxers and that is why they got the jab – some work in healthcare and it was mandatory, most of them were doing it to protect themselves – to prolong their lives, only to find themselves with severe adverse reactions or loss of life within weeks. And then their reactions are dismissed as ‘Comorbidities’ which we KNOW that most vulnerable people have – so why are we experimenting on them – or more to the point I want to make, why are they not being prepared – why are they not being told what to ‘look for’, why are they not given enough information so that if a side-effect is dangerous, they don’t disregard it and can act on it, early enough to save their lives? These people are now having to come to terms with the fact that these aren’t normal vaccines, and they can’t wrap their minds around what has happened to them and their loved one’s because they trusted they would be ok.

People are more afraid of being labelled a conspiracy theorist than dare question any doubts that might come up. I prefer the term “truth-seeker”; I prefer the term “concerned citizen”. When something doesn’t sit right – shouldn’t we look into it further, rather than just accepting what we see on tv?

Our everyday friends and social groups have now become the oppressors; first to knock-down, mock, or attack when they think someone might have a doubt? Are you allowing FB to brainwash you to become the oppressors? Are we not allowed to have doubts? To question? Is it not acceptable to compare research and discuss alternatives and solutions and our concerns? What can we do? Can we ignore this? Am I supposed to ignore this? Am I supposed to share this? Do you have doubts yourself but suppress them because you want to say what you think ‘society will approve’?

I don’t understand why noone is even a little bit curious as to how these vaccines work – don’t you want to know? Don’t you want to know before you hold out your arm? They are not your typical vaccine – they act completely different than what you have ever seen in your entire lifetime and you want the most vulnerable to get it first? If you agreed to go into lockdown to keep this thing from killing our ‘sick and elderly’, then I don’t understand the logic of giving something that is causing all these severe reactions and deaths to the very people you put your life on hold for because apparently you cared about them.

“Don’t give it to under 50’s, but over 50’s are ok?” We need to discuss why it’s ok to give something to over 50’s that is not safe for under 50’s. What is this arbitary line in the sand anyway? Where do they come up with that number? Don’t over 50’s ‘generally’ have more underlying conditions and a weaker immune system? Are we buying that the “risks of getting covid are greater than the risks of being part of the experiment?” If this makes sense to you, if you believe a narrative that the “benefits outweigh the risks” for the most vulnerable – especially in Australia where we have barely seen the horror stories that have happened in the USA and in other places, I would love to see the datao n that. Please help me find some valid research that proves why it’s a good idea to give to the most vulnerable: please send. I can’t live like this knowing that my friends and family are holding out their arms without proof that it is is safer than any alternatives – the only ‘validity’ I have found is that both covid AND the vaccines can cause blood clots.

This post won’t reach anyone, censorship that questions what the idiot-box tells us does not get any reach, and I’ll probably be put in Facebook Jail or banned for having an opinion; but I need to vent, I need to share, I need to do something. I can’t do nothing. I can’t read what happened to these people and do nothing.

AZ causing blood-clots made front-page news yesterday and I still heard “… but people get blood clots and have strokes everyday…” I guess, when it’s an unnamed statistic, a person you don’t know, a someone “over there”, when it is just a “name and an age or a number”, you can twist your mind around and make up all sorts of reasons why that ‘unknown’ person must’ve had this coming to them – their underlying conditions – their age group, because some of them will absolutely be for that reason. But for me this is exactly why these voices are not making it into mainstream media. And for the ones that have been affected, that know these people, that loved these people, they will never know for certain. They know that their loved one got the vaccination because they wanted to stay safe and prolong their life – they wanted to feel protected and stay around a while. Noone is taking it thinking it might make their situation worse. Now we’re discovering that it’s not just AZ, but all of the covid vax’s that can cause blood clots, so Johnson & Johnson, Pfizer, Moderna and Oxford as well, and also.. ‘covid’ can cause blood clots – so maybe they are ‘damned if they do, and damned if they don’t…” but are they making an informed decision.. are they knowing all this in advance – BEFORE they either decide to take the risk or not?

Well, if you are reading this now, and if you know this now, and decide to look things up, you can still decide what’s best for you and your loved ones knowing that whether they get a vaccine or get covid, they can still get clots – but more importantly – knowing that it ‘can’ happen, “what to look for”, and how long to stay vigilent after taking the vax so that you don’t just brush off (or let your doctor brush-off) any potentially dangerous symptoms as “probably just a side-effect” – like to actually ‘act on something’ when it doesn’t feel right.

This to me, is WHY they are giving it to over 50’s and the most vulnerable. Because ‘society’ will turn a blind eye to adverse reactions to those over 50 but if 22 year old’s start dying of blood clots, having strokes, or going blind – it might stir you up.

How can I be surrounded by so many who attack, dismiss, mock, or ignore instead of an appropriate expected response of “hmm.. maybe I should look into this further”… “maybe I should learn a bit more about it… “… “maybe I should know what to look for..”… “maybe I should understand the risks”…”maybe my information isn’t up-to-date”, “ohhh, maybe I don’t know much about these vaccines”.. “maybe I don’t know as much as I think I do by just reading the news”… “maybe, just maybe, I should seek more information before I decide”.

I DO understand that we have been conditioned to be “good citizens” and groomed from the day we were born as to what a “good citizen” is, I DO understand that people’s need to fit in and be accepted by their peers, their colleagues, their society, their friends, their family, their boss, their religion, etc. I get that. But is that urge to belong so deeply-ingrained, so powerful, so strong, so important to you, that you don’t question something when it brings up doubts?

I’m sad, I’m frustrated, I’m helpless because the task is too big for me, I’m worried, I’m concerned, I’m confused. I look like a crazy person for researching, for questioning, for making sure I understand. I can’t comprehend how we’re not ALL questioning or having doubts and madly researching. The media are the one’s that should be reporting on these things, not some joe blow like me, why are these people’s stories not being shared? And every single individual should be researching before they hold out their arm, or their kids’ arm, or their grandparent’s arm, and the health professionals and every single person working in the health industry should be the biggest researchers of them all.

I spend all day and night researching, and it shouldn’t be people like me doing this, I’m not a health professional so nothing I say will hold any credibility. The FLCCC had to practically beg the senate to get NIH to look into the Ivermectin data – but the NIH and CDC and all the government health officials shouldn’t need someone begging them to look at data – they should be onto it First – they should be the one’s gathering all the information being reported out of every country and reporting up-to-date findings honestly and with integrity.

I know that if I share research papers, noones going to click on them. I know that even if I summarize, noones going to read it, and I know a post this long will never get read (even if it did miraculously make it past facebook censorship). I don’t want to be a voice, and I also can’t do nothing. I don’t know what to do. I need to vent and think and continue researching. I can’t keep reading these stories and I also can’t stop reading these stories. My hands are in the air. I don’t surrender, I surrender. I want to stop looking and I can’t stop looking.

I want every individual to make their own informed decision about what goes into their bodies – I’m not “anti” freedom of choice, I’m anti this censorship of disclosure to what is working (as an alternative to even needing a vax) and to people being fully aware of what to look for if they happen to get one of these ‘side-effects’ that cause death or serious injury (if they decide to take it). I want people to just know everything they can know – all aspects not just the promise of ‘free donuts’ before they make a decision… AND I want people to have the freedom to be able to make an informed decision for themselves – no “FORCING” should ever come into legislation – what the hell?

You won’t find me holding up a protest sign or standing in the way of anyone who has made a decision about what they believe is best for them, and I expect the same in return. (I guess I am more anti- than pro- in general, because of my own bad experiences with the health system, but I’m also a solution-seeker and an obsessive researcher by nature, so if I find things that contradict my beliefs and it feels like a more educated and logical solution than my current view, if up-to-date data proves worthy, I am not so full of myself that I can’t change my perspective and take the anti-vaccine t-shirt off – I just happen to myself, have found more reasons NOT to take it, and darned if you build a world where you think it’s fine to force anyone to be injected with an experimental vaccine – let alone the whole world – are you kidding me!). I am full of doubts, concern, and distrust BECAUSE of all the censorship – that is what is building a wall – not being able to voice our concerns, not allowing people to discuss their doubts – suppressing the voices of the victims who have been damaged. It’s gross.

I can’t NOT share this because we all NEED to know this – it’s not making the news – it’s not reaching people before they make a decision to handover their trust to an experiment (of which is something that doesn’t even stop the spread). I don’t want to post because I know people ‘pick sides with everything in life and get nasty about it – from whatever football team they follow, to their political and religious views – and they will fight and argue and hold onto their belief for dear life (no matter what ‘team’ they are on or side they pick!), but I don’t think there needs to be ‘sides’ – I just want open dialogue to be our normal – and there are people picking ‘sides’ and not allowing everyone’s voices to be heard. So I don’t want to post and yet I can’t NOT post. I don’t want to post knowing friends work in the health industry, knowing friends have got the jab, knowing friends have diverse opinions and theories, knowing friends are holding so much optimism and have faith that these jabs will be the end to a pandemic and protect them and life will return to ‘normal’.


I hesitate for this reason, I don’t want to upset anyone and yet I also can’t “not” share because these voices aren’t readily accessible outside of these private support groups because noone can share them publicly without being censored, bullied, or dismissed. What to do? What do I do? What would you do if you read these somewhere and you knew your friends didn’t know? Do I disregard it because it might upset some people, or do I share with the hope that those who have concerns make an educated decision about the ‘benefits vs risks’. It won’t go anywhere so it’s rather pointless, other than that underlying hope that whoever randomly comes across this, may be someone that needed to see it, to initiate their own research or to know that not everyone sees roses and rainbows when it comes to this so-called ‘solution’, or maybe just to look things up and make their own ‘informed decision’ before deciding to do it anyway – I don’t know what I hope to gain other than getting this off my chest and a plee for people to gather more information ‘first’.. nothing more.

My best solutions for alternatives to being the guinea pigs, is building a stronger immune system, supplements, and Ivermectin. And who knows what else is out there that is working that I’m yet to come across, that you’re yet to come across, that someone else has found, that other countries are reporting in languages I’m yet to translate, but these things are the best defence and treatment that I (personally think) are safer than the experiments. But personal opinion and findings aside, there are many out there trying to get information to both the medical professionals as well as to individuals that is just not getting in front of people fast enough, and most don’t care enough to even seek more information.

I’m not going to share non-mainstream-friendly links because that’s a whole other level of deepness that you can go. I want, if anyone reads this, normal everyday news-reading types, to go to sources of information they can trust:

The FLCCC website is a good starting point for both health professionals looking for the latest treatments, and individuals who are just starting to look at what is working out there. These guys have been keeping up-to-date with what is working (for prevention and treatment) in other countries and coming up with protocols to share to health professionals and the general public.

Drbeen Medical Lectures on YouTube is a good starting point for understanding ‘how’ each of the various vaccines work, ‘how’ the virus works, treatments and prevention, etc (and he’s pro-vax, and has even been vaccinated a few days ago with Moderna). He believes in vaccination, so he might appeal to those who are already pro-vax, but he’s also a good source for those information-seekers who believe in prevention or knowledge in general, because he just researches and share’s all his findings – no tin-foil hat, no conspiracy, no fear-mongering, no screaming of bioweapons or anti-government, main-stream-friendly and pro-information-seeking-friendly – he’s just a doctor who just wants to educate, and he’ll explain things in more detail than you’ll ever get from your local).

It’s taken me 2 days to compile these stories, to blur out all their names, to edit out their photos. I joined this group within the last week when they had 14k members, yesterday there were was 53k members, and as I type this overnight it has grown to 62k members, and many more people have shared their adverse reactions and deaths of loved ones since I took these screenshots – there’s no way I can keep up, but their concerns matter, I believe their stories need to be heard. People need to know what to look for, what to be aware of, and health professionals who are administering these vaccines and citizens alike need to get as up-to-date as they can to make informed decisions.

In case you didn’t get the memo: This is not an anti-vax post. This is a… “are you aware of the risks?” post. “Would you know what to do if this happened to you?” post. Are you fully aware of the side-effects being reported worldwide – are you ‘in the know’ of what could happen if you take or not take it? This is a ‘call for everyone to be more informed’ post. This is a.. “I don’t know what else to do but share this” post. This is a “I’m heartbroken and helpless and concerned and need to share” post.

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Against Our Will [Australia & New Zealand]

Post dedicated to those standing for freedom of choice over what goes into their own bodies. You are not alone.

Aussie Health Workers on Jab Policies

Really think about this. Those who worked the entire “pandemic” are not taking the jab, are not allowed to ask questions, are not allowed to speak up, and have a different version of covid truth than the media.

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Health Insights from the first year of COVID-19 in Australia

The Australian Institute of Health and Welfare released a report on the September 10 2021.
“Health Insights from the first year of COVID-19 in Australia.”

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COVID Vaccine Victims Silenced

I want every individual to make their own informed decision about what goes into their bodies – you decide what’s best for you – I will never try and stand in your way. I’m just dismayed that there is all this censorship to what is working, the alternatives, and to people being aware of what to look-out for if they happen to get one of these ‘side-effects’.

[RANT] I’m heartbroken and helpless and concerned and need to share

How can I be surrounded by so many who attack, dismiss, mock, or ignore instead of an appropriate expected response of “hmm.. maybe I should look into this further”… “maybe I should learn a bit more about it… “… “maybe I should know what to look for..”… “maybe I should understand the risks”…”maybe my information isn’t up-to-date”, “ohhh, maybe I don’t know much about these vaccines”.. “maybe I don’t know as much as I think I do by just reading the news”… “maybe, just maybe, I should seek more information before I decide”.

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Penny... on Health

DISCLAIMER: The information on this website is not medical science or medical advice. I do not have any medical training aside from my own research and interest in this area. The information I publish is not intended to diagnose, treat, cure or prevent any disease, disorder, pain, injury, deformity, or physical or mental condition. I just report my own results, understanding & research.