Can’t Trust and it Bugs me – Don’t want to live in hateful world

IN Dark Night of the Soul

I don’t like your ugly world and it’s bugging me that I can’t find a world-view where I can have love & trust with hostile forces on the attack. Hard to breakthrough the delusion of love & trust to come to some kind of compromise where I don’t have to remove hope for humanity out of my belief-system, yet not be harmed by those who do not have our best interests at heart. Struggling with this last quantum leap that I need to live joyfully without suspicion and distrust.

Original (Longer) Version: I don’t want to live in a hateful world

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Truth-seeker, ever-questioning, ever-learning, ever-researching, ever delving further and deeper, ever trying to 'figure it out'. This site is a legacy of sorts, a place to collect thoughts, notes, book summaries, & random points of interests.