Category Dark Night of the Soul

Depression

Visions, Trance, Delusions, Unravelling Mind

Keeping myself calm and away from others

December 27, 2015
September 6, 2017
dark night of the soul, depression, ramblings, vlog

Psychotic disorder / not sure what is real / unravelling mind

Trying to return to some kind of sanity after being full-blown confused by all the conspiracies and experiences I've had lately. This video is for me to analyze and learn from.

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December 26, 2015
September 6, 2017
bipolar, dark night of the soul, depression, Insanity, vlog

In over my head – are demons real?

Going crazy... reply to someone who was saying that I was tapping into demonic energies

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December 23, 2015
March 28, 2023
dark night of the soul, Demons, Holographic Kinetics, intuition, Multi-Dimensional Beings, vlog

Time-out :) Be Careful – You Might End Up Like Me…

Note to self: If you tumble down the rabbit hole and it starts to make you nuts.. Stop, Reflect, Regroup :)

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December 22, 2015
September 6, 2017
vlog

I thought I was there to help his soul

Can't beat them, join them. It's more logical that I'm wrong. Or noone's crazy. Everything is our imagination. Truth-seeking & questioning reality is so hard.

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December 21, 2015
August 30, 2017
awakening, beliefs, bipolar, consciousness, dark night of the soul, depression, enlightenment, higher consciousness, self-doubt, self-sabotage, spiritual crisis, spiritual emergency, spirituality, vlog, vulnerabilities

Navigating Spirituality with Mainstream (UGH)

Finally recognizing a life-long theme in my life... I have issues with men, betrayal, and being free to be me.

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December 17, 2015
February 7, 2022
dark night of the soul, entities, Insanity, self-confidence, self-esteem, self-love, self-sabotage, unconditional love, vlog

Found a Voice Recording from 2 Years ago when I thought I was going to die

Sold my voice recorder today and this is what I found on it before I erased it.. me talking to myself intending to make a podcast 2 years ago. What do people who are dying think about? I don't know about others, but this is what I was thinking about... seeing every day as being a gift, not wanting to waste my life, ashamed, how to "get myself out of this", not wanting my life to be meaningless, and especially wanting to BE the real me.

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December 2, 2015
July 21, 2017
awakening, be yourself, consciousness, dark night of the soul, depression, enlightenment, motivation, self-doubt, self-sabotage, spiritual crisis, spiritual emergency, spirituality, vulnerabilities

[Ra] The Law Of One – Book 4

Here are my notes from Book IV.

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November 1, 2015
October 14, 2020
awakening, Book - The Law of One, books, channelled, channelled books, Conduit - Ra, dark night of the soul, dream interpretation, dream journal, higher consciousness, Illuminati (NWO), spirituality

Loving people for who they are, right now. (A lesson learnt)

I just want everyone to be happy, to be their best selves, and me too, and I'm learning that I'm still a child trying to find her way. Ignoring my own advice and learning my lessons.

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October 27, 2015
July 21, 2017
awareness, beliefs, conscious living, dark night of the soul, depression, Dolores Cannon (Hypnotherapist), ego, entities, Evil, fear, guilt, higher consciousness, unconditional love

You are not evil. (Parasites Feeding off Negative Energies)

This is an "add-on" to my last post (The dark days are over. Back to Crazy-Land!) The post was getting a bit big, so I decided to have a separate post with my notes on negative entities (of which, for the record, I'm still on the fence about, but "even if there is truth" to it, it doesn't change much about anything, except to be aware, vibrate higher, and trust your gut.

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October 26, 2015
July 21, 2017
awakening, awareness, bipolar, channeling, Channelling, conspiracy, dark night of the soul, David Icke, depression, entities, Evil, parasites, reptilians, self-doubt, self-sabotage, spiritual crisis, spiritual emergency, spirituality

The dark days are over. Back to Crazy-Land!

So much for being "back to earth" and acting like a normal person. I guess that lasted all of 2 days. I guess I'm not cut out for normality lol. I'm back to crazyland.. and I LOVE it.

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October 26, 2015
July 21, 2017
angels, awakening, awareness, be yourself, beliefs, bipolar, consciousness, conspiracy, crazy, dark night of the soul, David Icke, depression, dream interpretation, dream journal, enlightenment, entities, Evil, higher consciousness, limited beliefs, negative thinking, parasites, positive thinking, reptilians, self-doubt, self-sabotage, spiritual crisis, spiritual emergency, spirituality, vulnerabilities

Everyday you are given the opportunity to evolve. Everything is significant in our growth and expansion. What would love do?

My purpose is just to love, to be an example of unconditional love and compassion. That will either be the beacon of light or the seed that is planted that people don't "need" to suffer. To show them that they have a choice. Red pill. Blue pill. And accept whatever journey they have come here to experience, in whatever way fits best for their own evolution. Because they are me, and I am them. Their perspective/perception and experience is just as valid and part of this whole thing as any. I am here to help those who "want" to experience it without suffering because that's my super-power to share, that's what I came here to learn, and that's what I share as I learn. xo

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October 22, 2015
August 15, 2017
awakening, awareness, be yourself, beliefs, confidence, conscious living, consciousness, cosmic downloads, dark night of the soul, depression, diary, dream journal, enlightenment, forgiveness, guilt, intuition, journal, limited beliefs, morning pages, relationships, self-doubt, self-sabotage, spiritual crisis, spiritual emergency, spirituality, vulnerabilities