The “Worst” of me Exposed… and now I’m Free.

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Working through why I feel the need to publish my videos
– Not understanding why it’s been beneficial to “share” my videos instead of just recording them and keeping them for my own observation
– Trying to figure out “why” it helps me to upload to public
– Deliberately (but not consciously) sabotaging my self-identities and masks so that I can “feel free” to “be real”
– We’re experiencing at least 2 different realities at the same time
– Changing identities one day to the next
– No longer trying to “hold onto the identity of yesterday”
– I have a “work” identity, a “family” identity, an identity for every friend, and “this”, is me and “exposure”
– Peeling away the layers and becoming the rawness, so that I can live a good life without being “worried about what other people think”
– Concerned about youtube exposure for current / future
– Don’t be an over-sharer, my internet-security background
– Really wanting to experience who I “really” am before I die
– This channel ended up being “everywhere that I didn’t want the world to see this side of me”
– Completely exposing myself on YouTube.. here’s all my murky yucky, the “worst of me” .. and what now? Now I’m free.

Penny (PennyButler.com)
Penny (PennyButler.com)

Who are we? What are we doing here? What is the meaning of life? Penny is a truth-seeker, ever-questioning, ever-learning, ever-researching, ever delving further and deeper down the rabbit hole. This site is a legacy of sorts, a place to collect thoughts, notes, book summaries, whilst providing a searchable archive to easily lookup and reference.

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