I thought I was there to help his soul

IN Dark Night of the Soul

Found traumatic notes from past that made me question my sanity again. Victim-Victor consciousness. Can’t beat them, join them. It’s more logical that I’m wrong. Or noone’s crazy. Everything is our imagination. Truth-seeking & questioning reality is so hard.

Original (Longer) Version: Are my visions real? Donate my vids to psych-science. Wanting to go straight down rabbit hole AND stay sane.

Not sure if my mind is the right mind for the job for trying to figure all this out.  Big part of me wants to be loved and accepted by those around me, but another big part of me disagrees with the way society is- my beliefs don’t match theirs and I want to “save them”, then another part of me having these experiences that I can’t share.

Part Two: Wanting to go straight down rabbit hole AND stay sane.



Penny (PennyButler.com)
Penny (PennyButler.com)

Who are we? What are we doing here? What is the meaning of life? Penny is a truth-seeker, ever-questioning, ever-learning, ever-researching, ever delving further and deeper down the rabbit hole. This site is a legacy of sorts, a place to collect thoughts, notes, book summaries, whilst providing a searchable archive to easily lookup and reference.