On way to Shamanic Healing

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  • On way to Shamanic Healing.
  • After my crazy experience I made everything about me wrong and I had to start from scratch but I shouldn’t of listened to the haters and I shouldn’t of given my power away, yet maybe I needed an ego-death to experience so many lessons and completions. So many past traumas I got to work through, that I never would’ve got to work on if I had’ve stayed in my “I know the secret to happiness” mode that I was in.
  • I never thought it could ever get darker than what I had already experienced, but now I know what hellfire is. Noone is as cruel to us as our own thoughts.
  • I think I’m just going to have to be me & just thinking about that… has chirped me up a little bit.
  • I do need to remind myself that I “did” actually go a bit crazy though. I’m definitely not the same person I used to be, I don’t understand what happened, I got a lot of lessons out of it, I see others going through it now, and I wouldn’t wish it upon my worst enemy and I don’t think anyone would understand my unique version of it.
  • I hope if I don’t ever understand it in my life, that in the afterlife you get the “insight”: “See that cycle there… You asked for it! It was all a soul lesson! Everyone got to level up – it was a group soul effort and everybody got to level up! Well Done!” That would be nice.
  • I’d like to be a bit more psychic / insightful in future. But stronger… so that I know if I’m about to walk into the hell-fire, I don’t dance into it happily thinking I can fight through anything, and finding out my “ego/sword” was just a toothpick that had to battle through demons. I want my intuition to clearly say “if you walk through that door – it’s going to take you years to get out of it…and if you walk through that door… you need to be totally free of fears and have no “self-worth” issues lingering… are you really sure you are ready to walk through that door?”
Penny (PennyButler.com)
Penny (PennyButler.com)

Who are we? What are we doing here? What is the meaning of life? Penny is a truth-seeker, ever-questioning, ever-learning, ever-researching, ever delving further and deeper down the rabbit hole. This site is a legacy of sorts, a place to collect thoughts, notes, book summaries, whilst providing a searchable archive to easily lookup and reference.