– We are all bozos on this bus! (Pride / Ego)
Pride and Surrender
I am trying to understand the difference between the Creator’s will and my own will. Sometimes I think there is no difference at all, that in fact whatever is my will is also the Creator’s. But realistically, I don’t think this is true, at least not all the time. What do you think about this? Is there a line to be drawn in our perceptions of these things, and also in the reality of this? What is a good way to think about these things? I think the question is very tied in with the concept of humility, but I really don’t know how to address it in an intelligent manner.26
26 131, letter dated February 14, 1998.
Notice that there is no pride in her question at all. She is simply having experiences, and thinking about and weighing them. When one is in the flow, it feels as though our will is one with the Creator’s.
We would ask you to look closely at this matter of identity, for as long as there is self, there will be pride in self or a feeling about self that does separate one from others. If one is still thinking that one is living one’s own life, one is not yet beyond spiritual pride. There is righteousness there. There is an lack of eagerness to taste other souls’ flavors. There is a desire to retain some boundaries, some uniqueness of self, which is completely understandable in an illusion where there is no way to discover, in any way that can be proven, that one is not separate, that one is not, at base, oneself. And yet we say to you that, as far as we know, at base there is only the one, great self, that love which is reflected in each of the Creator’s children which each of you is.29
The final goal of all of these true spiritual paths is humility and a willingness to surrender that clay, the pride, the arrogance, the unworthiness and fear, to surrender all these emotions utterly to the power and peace of knowing that you are love.32
32 idem, transcript dated March 25, 1990, p. 8.
How will you know when you have gotten it right, as this instrument would say? May we say that to each of you [that at] the moment when you are one with the work, or to put it another way, when there is a feeling of complete freedom when doing that activity you hope will serve, then shall you be able, not to pat the self upon the back, but to turn and give thanks, for the feeling of complete liberty is at the heart of the state of mind which does often signify service well done. Any pride whatsoever is, though understandable, not relevant to the spiritual walk, which attempts to express the bias towards compassion more and more.35
35 idem, transcript dated November 14, 1993, p. 5.
We are all bozos on this bus! This is important! We need to keep this etched upon our brows and memories. As those of Latwii say:
Generally speaking, those known as wanderers enter the density no better equipped, for the most part, than those who (are) originally of that density, in that the wanderer, in experiencing the forgetting, is not allowed to draw upon the full resource of experiences. They are, in essence, playing the odds, so to speak, that their natural tendency toward positive polarization will exert itself, and they will be successful in both contributing to the welfare of those about them and the of sufficient polarization, upon their physical death, to be presented the option of returning to their original density or progressing to another act of service.45
45 Latwii, transcript dated May 16, 1982, p. 13.
In working in consciousness, our goals involve work only on ourselves, and include removing fear from our reasons for doing things, and replacing fear with honest love.
There is some level of concern for me here. I think it’s a combination of jealousy and repulsion, or something like that. I suspect I, myself, would like to think I could make a contribution to humanity on the level they proclaim to be making in this group, and at the same time I am repulsed by the slick, elitist, manipulative aspect of the whole thing. I would like to be involved in such work that involves groups of people working together in this way, but I can’t bring myself to get involved with something that appears as questionable to me on certain levels as this does. There are many such new age groups and visions that I would probably find equally disturbing. I focus on this one because it is what has crossed my path.49
49 131, letter dated May 8, 1998.
The preparatory step of working with lightening the consciousness of the planet begins with a long-term journey of understanding the self, of seeing the self as not elite and always equal to each and every other complex of consciousness which may pass before you. When this lesson is learned, the desire to meet only with those who meet your subjective standards of spiritual ability can be released more easily, for one is able to see that within each pilgrim lies the consciousness of love that, when purified, is a channel for love and light not only from the Creator, but from all those co-creators who serve at the harvest, such as yourselves.53
53 idem, transcript dated February 4, 1990, p. 3.
Pride certainly does not help:
It is not ever necessary that others grasp who you are or what you are doing. It is acceptable, in our opinion, to be misunderstood, mis-valued or mis-estimated. It is acceptable for others to think better of you than you think appropriate just as it is acceptable for others to think less. Release ownership of who you are. You cannot fly away from who you are, yet how closely you clutch and cling to this identity and attempt to torture it into ever more excellent details of behaviour, appearance, conduct and thought! Yet, you are asked only to love and worship a mystery and to embrace others just as you embrace, forgive and accept yourself. Seek to put your life in the Creator’s hands and the Creator’s life will be in your hands. You then will be the perfect mirror, transparent to the light and the love of the infinite One so that there is no flaw in the backing of your light mirror. Seek simply to know your identity in love. Turn from any other consideration as frequently as possible and spend precious moments with the love that you are, with the love that you then may share.156
156 Q’uo, transcript dated March 14, 1993, pp. 3-4.
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My notes to contemplate:
 – Faith (as a Polarizing Necessity)
 – Polarity
 – Third Density & other Densities
 – Relationship Catalysts
 – Catalyst and Experience
 – The Veil of Forgetting
 – Karma
 – Reincarnation
 – Our Energetic Selves and How We Evolve
 – Transformation & Global Harmony
 – Positive Harvest = reach 51% service to others
 – Guilt as Opportunities for Forgiveness / don’t fight the darkness
 – A call to a life in faith
 – Despair, Faith, Fears, Distortions
 – Psychic Greetings / Attacks from Negative Entities
 – Pride, Ego, Surrender, and Elitism – We are all bozos on this bus!
 – Self-Doubt, Insecurity, Suffering & Hostility
 – Wanderers Purpose – Head to the heart.
 – Personality Disorders, Handicaps & Illness
 – I have never felt as if I belong.
 – Unseen Guidance / Unity, service and love.
 – You are here to bring light to a dark world.
More notes to be added as I keep reading through the material. I’ll add the additional links to new notes when completed on post and post