A friends’ facebook post brings awareness to me about my potential to offend my subscribers whilst discovering who I am and ranting out my truth – but I can’t speak my truth if I worry and have to adjust my truth to match each of your personal trauma’s (even though it pains me if I find out that something I have said or a comment I have written has hurt you). Especially when what I am saying is coming from a place of love and my rants are not intended for anyone specific – only stuff that’s suppressed within me for years.
I suppress my truth on a daily basis – it’s suffocating — so this channel was for me to “get out” what is inside of me.. to discover who I am, find my truth, so that ultimately I become a better person on this journey and be able to help others – not trying to hurt anyone, though now I don’t know if that is unavoidable (I wish it was though).
I don’t know what you are all going through – we’re all going through something big – life is a set of traumas that challenge us – noone is immune from life’s trials. We might think it’s easier to try to meet other people’s expectations and try to avoid conflict – but I can’t cater for all of our different trauma’s .. and I know how that ends – living a lie and not being authentic – having a life full of regrets on my death-bed – I have another chance here to discover who I am before I die – that is my true goal here.. I want to know who I am, and not seek anyone’s approval or appreciation. I’m finding out who I am from within, and this channel is my outlet for expressing my current thinking.
I do fear offending people that I like here, but that is the fear that I want to diminish. I want you to speak your truth and I want to speak mine, even if we differ in our beliefs – because we all do – none of us have the same beliefs on everything.
If you are open to hearing my thoughts and feelings whilst I figure out what my beliefs are – what my truth is – then stick around.. but if I am hurting your feelings whilst speaking my truth.. please don’t tune in because I definitely do not want anyone to take what I say personally unless it’s going to “Better” their lives – I don’t want to make anyone’s life “Worse” because of what comes out of my mouth on this journey… xoxo
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