Dark Night of the Soul
Whether it’s real, imagined, your own fears/paranoia, a psychotic disorder, a mental illness, repetitive-negative-thoughts, negative-polarized, or old-programming being shed, once you have put any kind of “outside force” (demons, negative entities, evil, narc, spirits, ghosts, reptilians, darkness) into your world, it turns your life upside down. You can’t navigate work, social situations, family, relationships, even your own one-on-one time with self, without these negative influences being “part of your reality”.. or at least part of your perception on reality, and so people’s very helpful advice of “it’s not real, don’t believe it” doesn’t really work, because you have ‘made it part of your perspective’ on the very real reality that you are experiencing.
This exercise shows you where you are aligned. It shows you your boundaries, value-system, where your integrity is; where you’re at & where you ‘wish’ you were at. It shows you a pathway to being your potential – what you aspire to be, what you are learning in this human life, what you REALLY value and what is actually important to you.
As I see the desperation in others now, that neediness, that “begging” kind of emotion that they are feeling when they are “in love” with someone, from this new space of what I identified as being “disconnected from my heart”, I realize that there could be something to this. That they are also identifying “love” as this “needing another to approve of them because they don’t feel worthy enough to do that for themselves”
Anyway, so I have these 2 conflicting experiences / beliefs. That they are either real, or a conjuring from the collation of negative-influences within my own sub-conscious. Even if they are real or not real, the answer is the same… you have to ‘be solid within’ – be aware of your own weaknesses, fears, vulnerabilities and cultivate inner-strength and an ‘environment’ that negative doesn’t like to reside/dwell. That fear or any kind of negative-influences cannot ‘run the show’ or ‘attack’ if you are not ‘open for business’ – so the answer is to be-friend that ‘negative’ exists and cultivate inner-strength and purify the negative thoughts within.